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Monday, October 27, 2008

hmm.. long time nv post story liao.. lolz..
really miss "him" alot.. but he won't get the chance to know.. :(
really can't let go of him and accept others.. i try alot of way to put down.. but..
till now still cannot.. now.. only can wait 2 month later see how's all the things goes.. :(
anyone can teach mi wat to do ma?? some time really very hard for mi to pass my time..
please also teach mi wat is ture love.. how do u know a person really care or love u ma.. :(

for "him"
dunno u will read dao all this ma..
i really really miss u and really care alot for u.. no matter how last time we miss our
chance or wat.. really hope we two can get each other a chance to hold back everything..
i believe if we get back together.. both of us will treasure each other more than before..
maybe ppl will think that i'm silly.. but for u... it all worth it..
think alot ppl wanna know our story.. know from head to tail..
think 2 month later or 2 year later.. after we get back.. i will post all the story up ba..

no matter wat happened.. i will be waiting for you.. waiting for u to go back..
i dunno how to show how much i really love or care for u.. but i will try my best to wait..
to pray for u..

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Sunday, October 19, 2008

yesterday nite.. i make a very big mistake.. and this mistake make my love one very "wei nan"...
but becos of this thing.. make mi more n more wanted to hold him more tight.. and comfirm.. should be dun need to comfirm.. is sure.. love him more than ever.. :P

i dunno how he will feel and can see my blog ma.. but i wanna let him know.. i will wait.. no matter wat happened.. i will always by his side.. ever can't be together.. also wan to see him happy and "xin fu"

To chee ming, jess, bing and wei ming..
thanks for all ur support and acc mi whole nite wait.. listen to mi.. advise mi.. now u all should know y i wanna wait le ba.. :)

To "you"
thanks from coming meet us.. and explain everything.. no matter wat "somebody" say.. i will choose to believe u more den "somebody" i dun care u bluffing mi or wat.. but i still believe u got ur own reason... :) please do take care of urself.. :P

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Tuesday, October 14, 2008

11/10/08 to 14/10/08

know y i put those date.. cos in this few days really make my life a very big change..
not only tat it also chance my thinking on relationship..
last time i always told myself and frenz tat dun believe guy that must, dun trust them,
if they betray u.. just walk always dun turn back..
but now.. i know my mistake.
if u really love a person, u must stand on his side and think for him, trust him and always
treasure every moment with them..
i regret wat i have done last time "only for zhu pi gu" nv take good care of him,
nv think of him problem before.. that's y everything turn down like tat.
i really miss him badly this few days but dunno how to let him know..
maybe he may not come back due to some reason, but i will keep on waiting till the day
that all my hair grow white, think more n more slow & cannot move at all...
if can let mi turn back the time, i will let it happene again. wanna know y?
cos only this make mi know how much i really love a person.
maybe u see le will think that i very silly, but no matter wat.. i won't regret wat i have choose.
only can blame myself that nv treasure him well.
when we will together time, really very very sweet.. he really a nice guy tat i will hold him
if he going to fall, support him at his back "cos i can't contact him due to some reason"
an wei him if he need.

my past dear dear.. no matter what u have done wrong, i won't blame u, scold u, hate u
or beat u.
i will forgive u and listen to wat u wan to explain if u willing to say.
will keep on waiting for u.

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Thursday, October 9, 2008

hmm.. question question question...
hmmm.. how am i going to start?? okay.. i anyhow start hao le..

if u really love/like something.. will u give up on it??
maybe at the very 1st.. u didn't know u will like tat thing much..
maybe becos that thing not so outstanding, nice or maybe not the type u like..
but after few time u get alone with that thing.. u started to like it very much..
will u willing to gave tat thing up??
or what if fthe thing dun belong to u??
will u still carry on hold it??

if u are blurr on my question.. nvm.. cos i also very blurr.. dunno what actually i wanna post..
haiz..

fate like to play around with ppl.. once u have it.. u didn't know how good or useful the thing is..
and once u lose it.. den u keep on running for it or blaming the things..
maybe this apply to family, frenz and relationship ba..

for family..
u will think that ur family very fan,,. everyday nag on u the same thing..
or u will like to do.. they will ban u from doing..
actually family are the very good medicine for you.. frenz or realtionship will
leave u.. but ur family always there for u.. non matter wat mistake u have done
wrong.. this type of care.. frenz n BGR can't give u de..
once u made mistake.. they won't stop or forgive u..

for frenz...
maybe in the world.. ppl may thing as long as u have alot frenz.. ur life will
be colourful.. or happening?? u r wrong..
frenz dun need too much.. few will do.. real frenz will care for u when u need
them.. or the will show up themself.. u dun need to tell them u are sad or wat..
they will find out themself.. real frenz sometime may point to u ur weak point
but not ur good point.. this are cal real real frenz..

for realtionship..
hmm.. maybe find a stead very easy.. but wanna find someone u really love
or they really love u de.. very very hard..
once u find dao one.. remember to treasure it well.. dun let it run away..
of cos not put them in casg.. lol
ppl may think pretty gal easy to find stead.. they can dun need go find
wait for ppl to find them.. but all of u have make a mistake..
those gal are also a normal gal like everyone.. they also need someone to care, love
and dote them.. not just stead with them becos of their look..
what if one day they get old??
guy out there.. dun always think tat gal try their best to look good is to flirt..
they wan themself to look good becos they wan to caught ur attention..
plesae do trust them.. which gal dun wish to be pretty?? all the gal out there all
wish their behalf can see dao their most pretty moment..

for mi.. nth much to say.. just feel tat fate treat mi not well enough...
non matter wat i did.. end up won;t gave mi an happy ending..
i already promise to myslef will treasure watever thing i have..
dun fate dun give mi chance.. i also won't force..

at here.. i promise say out loud promise to myself.. if fate gave mi chance..
i will treasure.."make sure others also"
and if dun have that small litter chance.. i won't fall in love on someone eles till the day
i die... will always keep my promise..

won't let those unhappy things happened again... :P
forever cheerful..

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hmm.. this morning wake up feel so down.. but dunno y not tired..normally everyday got work sure very sleepy and tired.. but today dun feel so..izzit show that i become more strong?? when reach work place, started to lazy liao.. my mind can't really forces on something..so decided to take half day.. hmmm.. think now i feel better le ba.. my big stone in my heart already take out half.. now den i know.. if u really wanna to let urself dun think much or anyhow how think or maybe dun upsad on something.. just find that person out and tell them all ur feeling plus listen or ask question that u wanna know.. maybe that person won't tell u the true..but at least u see him tell u personal than using sms..even telling lie.. maybe also a white lie ba.. so tat can help urself to find many many reason not to like tat..

actually i also dunno wat i writing.. just think wat write wat..
alot of question on my next post.. draft

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Wednesday, October 8, 2008

sometime.. really dunno wat make a person happy or upsad??
when a person happy.. wat make them feel so?
when a person get upsad.. wat make them so upsad??
should we becos of a small little thing get upsad? or happy?
hao le.. dun say so must happy or upsad things le.. now.. start my day ba..

hmm.. today apply leave stay at home rest.. maybe becos yesterday nite nv rest well
ba.. dunno y sleep just a few hrs sleep can wake up so many time..
this morning wake up also dun feel good.. lucky yesterday already apply leave.. :p
just find that today abit blurr.. do things become very slow.. mind keep thinking on
something.. really hope can forget those thing should not come to my mind de..
yesterday hope today will be better.,. but dun see any different.. now.. hope today
can be better ba.. hope tml can be a better day..

yesteraday 07/10/2008 this day really not a good day for mi.. noon time suddenly
heard a bad new from some where else.. :) non matter wat.. must be strong..
that day really change my life..
i remember i have promise to someone something.. i will keep my promise..
just hope everything will be fine ba.. haiz..

hope or wish.. tml will be a better day.. plus.. will be more strong den ever..

** cai hui juan.. jia you.. non matter wat thing happened.. still got myself to support myself..

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